10 Days of Me: 8 Fears

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Hello everyone, I hope you are doing OK. I am seriously tired this week as I am commuting up to London every day for my makeup course. Not that I can complain, because I am absolutely loving it, however I'm here to talk about my fears with you all...

1. Spiders: I think everyone is scared of spiders, right? I can deal with tiny money spiders, but anything with long, or thick legs I hate... Tim isn't much better with spiders, but since we've been living together he has manned up and now grabs them for me.
2. The Dark: Yes I am afraid of the dark, and I have been since I was little. I used to switch my bedroom light of and run and jump into bed so the monsters couldn't grab me from under my bed, the monsters that only came out in the dark. We also used to sleep with the landing light on, up until I was a teenager actually, I just got used to it. I remember the first time I slept with a light off I was terrified... I'm much better now obviously, but I still don't like going out in the dark, or walking around the flat in the dark, it just makes me anxious.
3. The Sea: More specifically swimming in the sea, I'll happily paddle at the edge of the sea, and walk into the sea, but I cannot swim in the sea where I cannot touch the ground with my feet. Up until uni I had never been in the sea further than up to my hip, but one day I braved it and walked right out until it was up to my neck, it was very liberating, and terrifying at the same time.
4. Having no Money: This is one of my biggest fears, having spent three years struggling through university and rarely having enough money, and needing support from my family... I hated that time, and I used to feel physically sick every time I checked my bank balance, and I still feel that way today, despite being in a good situation financially at the moment.
5. Evil Spirits: I know most people think ghosts don't exist, but I do, and I am terrified of coming across an 'evil spirit'. The horror films that I find the scariest are anything to do with ghosts, I don't know what it is about them but the idea of coming across a ghost scares me more than the idea of coming across a serial killer...
6. Never having children: This one really terrifies me, there is a possibility that I may find it difficult to conceive a child, and I am so scared that it will be difficult for me. I guess I'll just have to wait and see with that one.
7. Losing my loved ones: I know that death is inevitable but I am terrified of losing any of my loved ones, from my pets, to my parents, I don't know what I would do without every single one of them.
8. Never reaching my goals: I have various life and career goals that I am desperate to meet, and one of my biggest fears is that I won't realise any of these goals, such as getting married, having children, working in TV/Film etc. I think everyone has a fear like this, but if I stop and think about it, I get really emotional...

So there we have it all, eight of my fears, I wonder if you feel like you know me a little better now?